The hardest part of being offered choices is probably when you need to finally make the choice. The agony is so much worse when the choices laid before your feet are important to you in their own ways. If only you could take all, right?
The past weeks had been such a roller coaster ride for me. I'd been to situations wherein I had to choose one thing over another. It was not easy and the process was definitely not a walk in the park. To give you an idea on what I'm talking about, it's work-related. Some of you probably know that I am a nurse by profession but currently working in a health insurance company. I'd been with this company for almost twenty long months and I feel grateful for it. It helped me financially of course by giving me generous salary; but above all, it helped me grow and develop my interpersonal skills. This could be a happy picture except that there is this space in my being that they couldn't just fill. Nurses whose jobs are not in line with their profession could understand my point. Probably. :)
Then comes this opportunity that I could not let to just pass me by. I took the chance; I sent an application form together with my resume. I was told to take an exam on the day when my current company held a seminar for us. Talk about conflicting schedules! When we told our "boss" about this (I was with two other colleagues), he told us that it was up to us if we would take the risk. Risk of what you ask? Well, risk of losing a job we already have and trading it for another job that we are unsure if we'll get. That was probably the longest night we ever had. Why is decision-making such a pain in the...mind? :p
Opportunity knocks only once, so they say. Though there was fear in our hearts the following day, we decided to follow where it leads us---we took the exam.
God would not open a door for us if He never intended to let us explore what's waiting inside.
Two weeks later, I received a notification that I qualified for an interview. Again, the choices are there waiting for me to make up my mind. It was harder to decide this time because everything's just up to me. I got confused, ambivalent even, whether I should pursue what I had started or just stay on the safe side. I even asked my mother's advice for this and she told me to go for whatever makes me happy.
The interview was actually today. And yeah, I went there without even preparing a bit. I was asked a question I do not know the answer about. If they would base the selection on that single question, so be it. I am not so worried now because I know, I did what I can and it's up to God where He wants me to go from here. At the end of the day, God's plan for me will still find its way.
One important thing I've learned from all of these, is to take risks. We could act upon a situation while it is still there. This way, we could say that "at least we tried." It is better to take risks and see what happens after than to let the opportunity pass without trying and forever wonder what could have been. :)
Time check: 11:15pm. Goodnight loves. :)